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I've mentioned before about there being an upcoming oc gacha, I believe I mentioned it last year and it's still a working progress, there are a shit ton of designs i need to sort through and get ready for the gacha. i hope to get it out this year but i can't make any promises, my depression prevents a lot of the shit i used to be able to do. it's not easy and i can't afford medication right now either. on top of my depression, i also have severe social anxiety, a lot of dark thoughts, insecure ones too, i've always been mentally slow (and it's gotten worse as i've aged), an eating disorder (stress eating), ADHD, some form of DID and it's possible i have either aspergers or autism.


during the time that i had been seeing my therapist, she helped some of my DID sides make themselves known, one even spoke to her a couple times. Then there was another time that my therapist mentioned to my mother that i was "somewhere in the spectrum." she never got around to diagnosing me with DID nor with autism/aspergers but during that time we had really bad insurance and could not afford me going to see her anymore. (i will be making a separate post about my DID at a later time).


my mental health has been bad for a very long time and time is slowly eating away at me, so to speak. as of recently, i've been on a week long break from social media aside from discord due to stress and heavy insecurities..


adding onto that, during my break, i've realized that i am a "tired" artist. meaning i just can't keep up with doing art of any kind anymore. and i've looked at my adopts today, all of them have been sitting there for months with no attention except favorites (which are appreciated but aren't gonna give me the points i need to pay for commissions). i will be taking down any of the ones that are Cheshire's so he can advertise them elsewhere since my page has become too dead to keep them up here. as for any of mine, i will be making them free. they will remain free for about month or so before i either decide to keep them or just trash them (if they aren't adopted in that timeframe).


that's where this important change comes in. i'm thinking after the gacha, i'm gonna hold off on and/or possibly quit making adopts all together.

i just don't have the energy for them anymore, i don't have the motivation for them anymore either. and anytime i do, something or someone comes in and ruins it for me.

my artistic ability & drive is sinking and i'm drowning in my depression.

my designs just don't get anything, no matter how much i sell them for, no matter how many groups i put them in, no matter how much I or one of my friends advertises them, they don't get bought. and i wait for months for people to buy my stuff just for me to either keep the design or give it away for free but EVEN THEN the free ones even get ignored for months on end and i'm tired of seeing my stuff sitting there, rotting away.


it's emotionally exhausting and feeds heavily into my insecurities about my art.

i think the only types of adopts that might come out once and great while is free ones or draw to adopt/art trade ones.

my page has been dying ever since the beginning of my depression, it's been like this for years and i keep finding myself distancing myself from DA more and more every day. and i know that the eclipse update didn't help at all with getting my stuff out there either.

i'm sorry about this, it fucking sucks honestly and i've heavily pended on this decision for quite some time.


the only designs i'll keep advertised is the Livicakes since i co-own the species but the advertisements will be strictly on Toyhouse rather than DA.


i think the only reason i'll even keep up my DA page in general is for personal art but even that is rare.


maybe in some far future i'll change my mind but right now this is where i stand. i hope y'all can understand why i'm deciding on this and will still support me.


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xx-Extra Updates-xx


-next month my gf is coming down to see me, idk for how long but i will be busy during that time.


-i've recently opened up and made an art server for me and my friends. was wondering if any of you would like the link to it (will note you if interested). it's very new still and i'm still new to taking care of servers and working out the rules (which have yet to be made), so please be patient.


-i hope in this process of moving on from adopt making that i can start the process of getting owed art out to all those who are still waiting. i do appreciate you all who have been patient and i do apologize to those who have been waiting a very long time. my life and depression have gotten in the way so much, motivation is so hard to come by but i have been determined for so long to get the owed art/customs/results/etc. out to you all at some point.


-after i sort the gacha stuff, i'll get to working on the owed art.


I think that's about it, thank you for reading and being so patient with me, i am truly grateful to have such loyal and kind friends, watchers and customers. I'll see you all soon. -Jane.

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Laptop update

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as y'all had seen on my ych, my original laptop died.

however right now i am using my sister's old laptop, so i can still do some things but they will be slow due to this laptop. it's very laggy, slow and running out of memory. i hope to get a new laptop soon but i don't know when that'll be. bc i still need some more money to get one.


but yeah that's about it, i'm still gonna be on a semi-hiatus bc of my mental health but i just wanted to let y'all know that i can complete your orders!

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I now have a paypal account and I'm going to be trying to raise some money to help my mom out with some of the bills since money right now is tight plus it'd be nice to just have money for myself. They'll be 100% cheap too quq since it's my first time using real currency. Now these commissions will be different from others I've done in the past.

Edit: the original commission type 2 is now a ych, check my gallery for that.

I'll add more commission types once I figure out what they'll be, so for now there's only the one.


I will try to get these done in a reasonable amount of time!


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Commission Type #1

-Hand-Drawn

I'll be trying my hand at traditional media, just send me any type of character/oc that you'd like for me to draw for you, I'm a little rusty but I would like to show off my style. Can really be anything, whether human, anthro, animal, humanoid, etc. as long as it's not too difficult!

These will cost $1 each

-Please specify if you want it to be colored in or not (both are free!)

-And also specify if you want a headshot, half body or fullbody (for now all options are also free!)

Here's some examples of my style!

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Slots (I'll start off with 10 slots but can and will add more if I get any more than this)

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So yeah that's about it, thank you to anyone that can help out! And if you can't afford these, don't worry! If you still wanna help out, sharing this journal would really help a lot!


I may make the 1st commission type officially apart of what I offer on my account! If things turn out okay with these then I probably will!


Anyways, thank you for taking the time to read! -Jane/Chelsey.


Edit: can't take any paypal commissions right now, sorry.

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I've been trying to figure my life out, been taking lots of breaks and focusing on what makes me happy and I've recently been really happy! More happy than I've been in the last few years, so I haven't really been focusing on much than that. I don't know how active I will be, my laptop is still a mess and my friend said he was gonna try to help get a new one and he's even talked about coming down to see me so I won't be on much when he does. But I hadn't been on in awhile I wanted to let y'all know I was okay!

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I apologize about being late about this! I kept forgetting then all my mental shit got in the way >0<

Thank you to AlvahTheMainMare88 bloodytomboy KiaraXKovu27 and FoeGottenNinja for joining!


Before I announce the winner, little disclaimer, I won't be able to do the breeding prizes until I the currently long list of owed art done so I hope that's okay! However, y'all are completely free to make your own version of foals between our ocs!


Here are all the entries!

What On Earth Are They Doing?

Foe's Fine

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Calliope's mate contest -Entry-

Kiara's Mistletoe

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Calliope Mate Contest Entry | Red

Tomboy's Red

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And Alvah's Irina

calliope mate contest ~Entry #1

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The winner is AlvahTheMainMare88 ! I just loved your mare since the moment I saw her and I think she fits best with Calli vuv


2nd place: FoeGottenNinja

3rd place: bloodytomboy

4th place: KiaraXKovu27


Thank you guys again <3

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